can i wake up when OCTOBER ends?][ vindicated-*

Friday, September 05, 2008

After watching Sound of Music for 2 days in a row, I've decided that it's time to say
"So long, farewell.."

Well actually, it didn't. Ha. But still I'm leaving never to come back again.

Leaving? No.

Gone.

Goodbye.

9:33 PM

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Saturday, August 30, 2008

Rachel and I can't stop laughing. Hahaha. This is hilarious.

I was in this "missing Westlife" mood you see. So I started googling for Westlife. Then I found this: http://www.tabs-database.com/westlife/SINGING-FOREVER-lyrics.html

It's so amusing because it's Westlife singing a Metallica song! Well, Rach and I think that it can't be. The person who posted the lyrics must have had make a mistake. Hahahaha. Imagine Westlife singing a Metallica song! Or, imagine Westlife and Metallica working together! Hahaha.

Rach thinks that if Westlife sang the song, it'll be something like this:
Everyone: RUNNING!
Shane: on our way
Everyone: HIDING
Mark: you will be
Everyone: DYING!
Nick: A THOUSAND DEATHS!

Ah. Funny! Hahahaha.

Today was pretty nice. Went to JP with Huiqin to study. Then it was guitar where Rach and I spent a good half an hour stringing her guitar. Hahaha. We tied the first string, tried to tune it and it broke. All in all, the strings kept breaking until Mr Lim enlightened us. Haha.

And in conclusion, I'm a terrible Westlife fan.

9:06 PM

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Friday, August 29, 2008

I feel as if I'm running away from something. I don't like running away.

Feeling bittersweet again. Life's just like that isn't it? It all depends on how you look at it.

I've decided to accept things as they are now. For the time being at least. I think I'm confusing myself. I accept it but I'm still going to try my best to change it.

I feel kind of glad. Life seems happier when you just let everything go. Simply because we control nothing at all. The choices we make certainly affect the outcome but we definitely do not have any control the things that happen around us at all.

It's a simple world and then again, it's complicated.

I saw this on YouTube: the definition of faith is "a firm belief in something for which there is no proof."

5:57 PM

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Thursday, August 28, 2008

Initially, I had lots of things to say, lots of things to blog about.

But then the more I thought about it, the more I realised that it wouldn't mean a thing to any of you.

Ultimately, I'm still your friend.
You know, it doesn't really matter what your definition of friendship is because as your friend I do my best to fit your definition of a friend. I might not succeed. In fact, I think already failed but you know what, I don't think I care. Because I tried. And I'll try and try again.

It's the same for you I guess. I hope you won't ever give up a friendship. The person might have wronged you, treated you badly. You might think that the person isn't worth your friendship. Think again.

I realised that sometimes, it's never enough for you to just be waiting. It's never enough for everybody. There are times when you just have to go after someone and pull them back. Those are the times when if you wait, the person might have already gone over the edge.

Love is patient and patience is a virtue.

7:47 PM

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Saturday, August 23, 2008

Every song is making me sad. Ha. Probably because 78-79% of the songs I have are sad songs. 21% high songs. 0-5 % songs that I don't listen to. 0.01% songs which I can delete. 1% unheard songs.

Goodness. I think my sentence structure is deproving. The above paragraph doesn't sound grammatically correct. At least I think all the percentages are correct. Gah.

I think I like talking to strangers.

It feels good talking to someone who have no idea about who you are, who's purpose in talking to you is to get to you know more. Isn't that how friends start out in the first place?

Ah. I'm feeling sleepy. Can't complete my thoughts.

9:48 PM

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Wednesday, August 13, 2008

Life has been throwing up lots of shocks and surprises.

Or maybe, it hasn't.

Everything that happens isn't a coincidence. That I know. Every choice that we make will somehow affect an event, no matter how big or small. That, sets of a chain effect, a cycle, a full circle, whatever.

Those shocks and surprises aren't that impactful. If you're not me, you probably wouldn't think that these things have any effect on you at all. Haha. In fact, they wouldn't be worth mentioning.

But, me being me, I like to blog about things like these.

I somehow feel, that everyone around me is growing up. It isn't some wham! into your face realisation. It's kind of a gradual thing, something that creeps into the back of your mind and dwells in the darkness and the cobwebs of your brain. Then, it grows until it starts to occupy most of the little space that your brain has.

It's going to be 8 soon. I want to watch television. It seems as if the closer it is to O Level's, the more spend time I spend on watching television and sleeping. While everyone has already gotten their books out and start their revision, my locker is still full of notes and books.

These days, it seems as though the number of internal monologues that I have are increasing. Having a conversation with myself is pretty annoying.

7:23 PM

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Tuesday, August 12, 2008

Jingying wants to kill me. Hai. I wanted VERENA :D to be inscribed on my tombstone. She insisted that I had something like this:

May Rachel be Jingying
May Jingying be Ziyi
May Ziyi be Huiyun
May Huiyun be Junqi
May Junqi be Huiqin
May Huiqin be Wanzheng
May Wanzheng be Shuhuan
May Shuhuan be Beatrice
May Beatrice be Kiankoon
May Kiankoon be Kenny
May Kenny be Gongyi
May Gongyi be Serene
May Serene be Rachel

I would have gone on but I think the tombstone wouldn't have any more space.

7:38 PM

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